Today was so much better then yesterday. I don't know if work makes things easier for me or if just in fact things were better today. I think it might be the work thing. My day started with my dad coming over to spend a little time with me. It was nice because it was his birthday and I got to spend time with him. Normally I would get the day off and do something special but instead I've got so much on my plate that I had to work because I already had my two days off. But either way it was awesome to have him over. The nice thing about my dad is I can have a competlety horrible day the day before and then the next he reminds me that it's a new day and to let go of yesterday. It's not always easy for me to let go of things. I harbor a lot of guilt for some reason. Everything makes me feel guilty. Getting sideways with my sister made me so upset. The last thing I want do is be in a bad place with anyone right now. Yesterday was just so horrible for me and I'm trying to focus on the days to come. The very scary days to come but I can do this. I know I can.
Work was great. I had such a good time today. We weren't crazy busy but I was busy enough to keep my mind off of my awful yesterday. I truly appercitate everyone at work right now. They have all been so kind and understanding. I will miss all of them while I'm out. My bosses have been even better than I expected to me. I just wish there was more I could do for them. Don't get me wrong I know I have my moments where I'm difficult to deal with and they have really been great with that. I'm ready for work to be over for me. As much as I love everyone there and they have all been so great I am ready to be with my friends and family a little more. Who knows how long it will take me to get back to me so I just want to cherish these moments I have right now with my loved ones. There just isn't enough time for me to spend with everyone. I only have 4 more shifts so I will make the best out of it.