Sunday, January 15, 2012
Today was Tough
To say the least today was a tough day for me. I always start my day the same, wake early, eat breakfast, shower, go to work and try not to break down. Well today it just didn't work out that way. I broke today. I have moments all day that I just want to cry but I suck it and push through knowing that it is only a moment and I'm going to be okay. Today I was not so lucky. I had a moment and the tears just didn't stop. There wasn't anything I could do to stop them. I tried so hard, I don't want to cry. I don't want to be that person that can't handle their business. But I was that person today. I cried because I was sad. I cried because I was short with someone. I cried because I don't want to be sick. I cried because the ringing in my ear won't stop and I would do anything for a quiet moment. I don't want to cry it makes me feel weak. I should be stronger and I should be able to handle this. I just couldn't today. Everyone tells me that it's okay to get like this but I just don't feel like it's okay. I just want to be myself again.